The mama who expects too much
Submitted by Stephanie on Mon, 10/05/2009 - 14:02.
*Please note: horomones during pregnancy can cause woman to act, think crazy.
So, I have high expectations of Shane and for the most part he lives up to them. I think I also have generally higher expectations of myself as well, which by default leads me to have high expectations of everyone around me. Silly, I know. This often leads to my disappointment. I can usually handle disappointment rather easily, and in time get over it. As a mom, I'm finding that more difficult when the disappointment affects my kid. (Okay, I know it doesn't affect him directly because he doesn't know there is anything to be disappointed about, but it still isn't easy for me). I recently asked if Shane could be in a program that he was a little too young for, only by about six months. I asked for a four week trial to see how he would do -- I did not even ask for him to just be allowed into the program. The person I contacted avoided me for a week and I had to call her to get a response. It was not the response I was looking for. I felt like I was being told no because I wasn't this particular persons favorite and then I was told there were other children Shane's age that wanted to be in the program. I asked this person to talk to another leader about offering a time for those 'other young children' who were also interested (because the other leader told me she thought if there was enough interest, a program should be considered). The leader I emailed/called told me she would 'noodle' on that.
It felt like a total blow off and I began to wonder if there were any other young children interested.
So, what? I'm just the proud mama who thinks her child can do anything and tries to push people around and get her kid into whatever she wants them to be in, right? I don't think I actually am, but I was disappointed enough to be worked up over the way this was handled. Too worked up as Chad told me (ah hello . . . pregnant with twins). What's wrong with expecting to be addressed in a nice way and expecting to have my question promptly dealt with? Because this particular person is rather like a cold prickly, I should just suck it up and not be upset. Well, I certainly sucked it up and politely went along with the compromise I was offered. But I'm sorry . . . I am upset. I want to be treated the way I treat people. I want a little consideration instead of being blown off.
Chad says, I'll just have to get used to waiting because of when Shane's birthday is. So just keep waiting, just keep waiting, just keep waiting, waiting, waiting, waiting. I feel like Dory in Finding Nemo. Only it's not my choice to keep waiting. I'd much rather keep swimming. Some one tell me how to keep swimming . . . please :)